Sound and fury signifying nothing

I didn’t get my period.

When I went in for my appointment this morning, I fully expected the study coordinator to shake her head sadly and show me the door. But that didn’t happen. Instead, she did an ultrasound, and decided that my uterine lining was thin enough that they could start the IVF medication regimen today.

The nurse taught me how to use the injectable medication and the high-tech pen with the little clicky dial. Hearing the words “needle” and “stomach” in close proximity had led me to expect something fairly horrific, but in fact these needles are tiny, resembling nothing so much as a mosquito’s proboscis.

From the office, I went to the pharmacy, where I was given an ENORMOUS BAG full of folic acid, pre-natal vitamins, steroids, progesterone supplements (in two different dosages), antibiotics (one set for Mr. Malaprop, one for me), pain medication I can’t take (“I’m allergic to codeine!” “This isn’t codeine.” “No, but it’s closely related to codeine, and it will make me throw up. Trust me, I’ve been through this before.” “Well, take it home anyway, just in case you change your mind.” Sigh.), Valium, and a sharps container. And probably some other stuff too, but I can’t be expected to remember everything.

After all that panic, I’m feeling pretty damn crampy. I don’t know if it’s the drugs I was given this morning, or just my period deciding that now all the fuss is over, it might as well show up for the party.



  1. ppproject said,

    July 6, 2007 at 2:50 pm

    Dear Mdm,
    I am a student from Pioneer Junior Collage, and would like to conduct a questionnaire to learn more on IVF (in Vitro Fertilisation) though your personal recount. I found your blog through my internet search and found your blog well written and emotional. Please answer the questions below. Thank you.

    1) Have you ever considered going for IVF prior the treatment?

    2) How long did you tried to conceive through other means before resorting to IVF? What are some of the complimentary methods you had tried to increase your fertility?

    3) How do you feel when you realised IVF is your only possible option for conception?

    4) There are financial, emotional and physical stresses, as well as moral issues involved in IVF? What made you do it?

    5) Have you ever considered adoption, instead of going for IVF

    6) What was your family’s reaction when learning of your decision to undergo IVF treatment?

    7) Did you or your family faced any form of stigma/ojection arising from your decision to go for IVF?

    8 ) What kind of research did you make prior to your decision to undergo IVF?

    9) How did you make your choice for the fertility clinic?

    10) How long and how many attempt did it took for your successful conception though IVF?

    11) level of confidence in the lab of having safe sperms / eggs.

    12) Was charting your daily fertility signs cumbersome for you?

    13) Can you share some of the advises given by the specialist?

    14) How much did you pay for the IVF treatment?

    15) If you could turn back the clock, would you undergo IVF again?

    16) (If you had conceived though IVF) Would you undergo IVF again for another child?

    Thank you.

    Jian Cai

  2. July 10, 2007 at 7:49 pm

    […] better give you some Darvoset.” Fortunately, I was awake enough to fend that off (see below entry about how Darvoset = codeine = puking), so I got some tylenol […]

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